Secretly in a boat I went

Ellis, M 2014, Secretly in a boat I went, Doctor of Philosophy (PhD), Media and Communication, RMIT University.


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Title Secretly in a boat I went
Author(s) Ellis, M
Year 2014
Abstract Secretly in a Boat I Went is an experimental literary work that explores an obsession with and longing for Greece. The project consists of three books—‘Rising’, ‘Falling’ and ‘Falling-Rising’—that together are an imaginative and theoretical response to the experience of not belonging. It begins with everything that being a half-Greek Australian has represented in my life, including being born a bastard child (an abandoned child), food, love, pride, shame, storytelling, music, feeling left out, secrecy, hiding, power, escape, failure to belong, recognition, return and betrayal.
In homage to Roland Barthes, the inspiration was to produce an ‘erotics’ of belonging. A highly subjective work, this practice-led project uses the self (myself), as representative of what I am calling the ‘nonbelonging’ subject.
Secretly in a Boat I Went moves fluidly between the fictional and the autobiographical, the visual and the textual, and the imaginative and the theoretical, in what is a complex and layered exploration of desire and place. It explores the ‘prick’ of Barthes’ punctum taking his notion of wounding further to explore a different kind of jab contained in the experience of being cut out and/or noticeably absent.
Secretly in a Boat I Went is both a composition and a conversation. Not unlike the psychoanalytical encounter, it seeks to uncover heuristically what is unknown—unconscious. As such, it is a digressive and associative text with moments of collapse and renewal. The intention is that as a collection the three books of this project can be read in any order despite their numbering, and that they are stand-alone works.
Secretly in a Boat I Went is informed by philosophy, psychoanalysis and literary theory. It is a road and a body of water, an anchor and a sail; it is a secret and a betrayal, a whisper and a shout. It is a fiction and yet all of it is true. It is a shed skin, an archaeological dig. It is an experiment, a hunch, a rebellion and an ode. It is one part ocean (Australia) and one part sea (Greece).
Secretly in a boat I went is a piece of music—it is a song, and I shall sing it to you.
Degree Doctor of Philosophy (PhD)
Institution RMIT University
School, Department or Centre Media and Communication
Keyword(s) Nonbelonging
Desire
Betrayal
Absence
Experimental memoir
The body
Psychoanalysis
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